Alexi Grey

I Hate My Life

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 04:01:54 GMT

My external hard drive just broke. Unfortunately, that's where I keep everything I've written. Thankfully, my notes on the 'verse I'm creating are written out on paper instead. If I lost that too, I would probably cry. When I transferred the files, I really didn't think the hard drive that was only a few weeks old could break. ARG!

So, yeah, my life sucks. This is on top of everything I've been dealing with already. I'm not going to go over it all here because then I'd get depressed.

It Wants To Be Buffy

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 21:18:38 GMT

Recently, my sister and I watched some episodes of a British show called Demons. It wants to be Buffy. Seriously. It even copied some lines. My sister posted some commentary on the first two episodes here. We might add more later. Be warned, it will have spoilers.

I don't really want to talk about my numerous Buffy fanfics that I have started and probably won't finish. Nothing else is really happening in my life that I want to mention on here. So, that's all for now.

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 23:28:51 GMT

Wow, It's been awhile. Between being busy and being distracted by shiny things, I haven't updated in quite a while... What do I talk about on this thing again?
Weeell, there was the fanfic stuff... but there isn't anything I really feel like ranting about. Especially since I'm becoming more tolerant of pairings I dislike. I mentioned fanfics I was working on but I discarded those. They were pretty much horrible. I've started a new one which is going to be EPIC if I ever finish it... which I probably won't. Plus, since I refuse to post any part of a fic before I finish it, I may never end up posting it. I should probably work on some shorter ones too... but I really don't have any good ideas for fics that aren't ridiculously long.
Farewell, reader. Hopefully, I post something else soon... OOOOO, SHINY!

Give me something to sing about

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 22:19:38 GMT

I really don't have anything to say. Gods, my life has gotten boring.
I just finished my winter break which I used to recover from the quarter from Hell. (Can I still use that phrase since I'm not Christian?) Basically, there was one class, which I have to take to finish my general ed requirements. Seriously, why would a Computer Science major need to take a writing class? Plus, there is the fact that it didn't teach me anything that I didn't learn in high school. Not that the professor got to teach us anything anyway. The number of papers that the University requires and the fact that the class only met twice a week meant that we took up so much time working on the papers that we didn't have enough time to actually have lectures.
Thus, this quarter I decided to take it easy... Of course, things didn't go as planned and I ended up in a course in which I'll have to write 4 papers.
Anyway, that's enough ranting. Farewell, reader... Yes, reader, not readers. I know my sister is the only one that reads this thing... and she already knows this anyway... Damn, I'm lame.

Note: Does anyone see the Buffy reference?

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 02:46:44 GMT

I am back at college and I'm going to be starting classes tomorrow. I have a lighter course load than usual so hopefully I'll be able to work on all the things I have been meaning to work on. Of course, I probably will just be lazy and not get around to a lot of them.
Just to warn you, I am about to rant about a few things in fanfic that have been getting on my nerves. These are things that can be done well (I wouldn't even bother reading them if they couldn't) but usually aren't. I am just attacking the ones that aren't done well so don't send me hate mail. Anyway, on to the ranting. Lately, I have been reading quite a bit of Harry Potter fanfiction (most of it Harry/Luna). Some of it is good and some of it is so bad that it's good but a lot of it has been getting on my nerves. It's really annoying how so many people try to write Luna and fail miserably. Some people are really good at writing Luna as the misty eyed girl that sees the world in a different way than everyone else but so many people just treat her like any other character. They make her seem normal. It's like they don't even try to make her the lovable loon that she really is. While I'm on the subject of out of character Harry Potter fanfiction, I might as well mention Ginny/Draco. While I have read some good ones (and I love the pairing when it's done well), a lot of them completely change one or both characters personality for no apparent reason. I have read some that give events that realistically lead up to the personality change (and even a few that made it workable without it) but the majority just have emo Ginny or puppy Draco (yes, it is that bad) for no apparent reason. Plus, the really bad ones forget Ginny is short for Ginevra and call her Virginia. Of course, there are a quite a few pairing that don't make any sense but I won't go into those because I know at least one of them has enough of a following to flood me with hate mail. Of course, before I read a good Ginny/Draco fic, I never would have thought it was possible so I might be wrong about some of the others. Though, there are a few that I know without a doubt would never work. It's tempting to rant about them but I don't want hate mail.
That's enough ranting for now. Time to read more fanfics... HARRY AND LUNA FOREVA!

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 21:45:14 GMT

I know I haven't posted in a while. I can't imagine why I used to think I would have a lot to post about.
Anyway, I recently saw an awesome songvid. It's my favorite pairing, Harry/Luna.
http://brasiliana.livejournal.com/22151.html
HARRY AND LUNA FOREVA!
Thus, my new avatar. Unfortunately, I didn't make this avatar but that's okay because Luna rocks.

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 21:08:58 GMT

Once again, I'm posting without anything to say. The most interesting thing I've been doing on a semi-regular basis is reading horrible fanfiction (that never gets old). On a more interesting note, I did see the Transformers movie. Like all Transformers fans, I was expecting it to suck. I wasn't planning on even going until I heard a favorable review from a very reliable source (well, as far as Transformers go at least). The movie was surprisingly good but I think they should have given the Transformers more screen time (possibly by cutting out the techie subplot). Obviously, seeing the movie is the reason for my new avatar. For those who never saw the cartoon, the Decepticons in it are Megatron (though, he has his back turn) and, my favorite, Soundwave (though, he wasn't in the movie). Poor Soundwave, he is so unloved.

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 03:55:39 GMT

I'm back... finally. I finished finals (did I ever mention that I'm a freshman in college?) and got back to the Pacific Time Zone almost two weeks ago but it took me this long to finally post something. This is partly because it took a while to get all my stuff from my dorm that I had mailed and move back into my parents' house for the summer. One would think that this would not take that long unless they factor in my laziness and how easy it is for me to get distracted by shiny things. I haven't done much since I last updated. Between studying for finals, moving, and downloading TV show episodes in order to procrastinate, I haven't had much time to do anything interesting.

Mon, 28 May 2007 04:43:09 GMT

I'm back. I was considering simply posting the word "bork" in huge letters but that might piss off someone who reads my livejournal... Of course, barely anyone reads it so it wouldn't matter. Though, now that I have already written something, I don't feel like going back and changing it. Besides, I don't want to scare away my precious few readers.
Hmm... what is there to talk about? I guess I can give a fic update. I haven't made any progress on my fanfics... at all. They've been put on hold as I've been working on notes for the 'verse I'm creating for the book I'm planning on writing eventually. I'm pretty much set with everything except the heros. Though, these notes are probably going to be revised a few times. Not really much else to say.

Fri, 18 May 2007 04:00:11 GMT

Hey, everybody (by which, I mean... do I really need to keep saying this?). Last time I posted, I briefly mentioned a really cool person on Livejournal. It was really easy and I thought that doing that again would be a good way to put something up here. Plus, I can't really put something up about napoleonherself but not her partner. Then, I got distracted by something shiny. Now that I've finally pulled myself away from the shiny things, I'll continue where I left off.
Today, the person I'm going to refer you to is Napoleon's partner-in-crime and my ever-glorious queen, mapricotonkey (aka Becky). The two of them used to run Padded Cell Productions (which isn't actually a business even if it sounds like one) but, as far as I know, that ended years ago. I learned many important things from them. For example, Becky taught me that the sun doesn't really shine. It's all a conspiracy. As such, I cannot put it out with a bucket of water.
That should be it for now. Though, I wonder if even Becky will understand the queen thing. I don't know if I'll be doing this again. Mainly, that's because the only other member of the old crowd (if they don't know who they are, they will by the end of this) is Mecha. However, I'm pretty sure he's the one who banished me to the Evil Toilet (it's a long story and you really had to have been part of the old group to really understand) and I'm still bitter about it. Though, if I remember correctly, I was being a moron and probably deserved to be punished. However, I do not think that anyone deserves the horrors that are the Evil Toilet. Now that I think about it, I doubt that any of them will remember me. Unlike the rest of them, I never did anything interesting (except for the time that I tried to eat love. again, you had to be there). Though, now, I think I have achieved a level of madness that would make them proud. It's only a matter of time before I say something to prove it.

Wed, 09 May 2007 05:47:59 GMT

In case anyone noticed that I haven't updated in a while, I'll tell you what happened. Basically, the other shoe dropped. I had been waiting for my new found free time to disappear. Right when I started to relax, it all disappeared in a flurry of madness. I don't mean the good type of madness either.
Speaking of madness, I just remembered that napoleonherself has a livejournal. That's also the explanation for the new avatar... I miss Snaildust. Anyway, I should probably stop talking before I go into a crazed fanboy rant.
There really isn't much more to say, except that Napoleon rocks. (I was considering using her real name but I doubt that anyone would know who I was talking about) I was going to put a joke in here but, thankfully, I just realized that it would be in very poor taste considering certain events. Plus, it would be far worse if someone took me seriously.

Xombie

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 01:27:33 GMT

As you might have guessed from my new avatar, the zombie book I ordered off Amazon came early. It's shorter than I expected but it's still really awesome. Xombie: Dead on Arrival is the coolest thing I've read in quite a while. I'm still surprised I could tear myself away from it long enough to eat dinner. Hmm... I can't think of a good way to summarize it so I'll just give a link to the Amazon.com page or you could go to the official Xombie site. Now, I have to read more.

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:00:08 GMT

Hmm... I guess I should update on everything that I've been talking about. Well, as far as the free time thing goes, I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop. If I still have free time next week, I'll do something... No, that a lie, I won't do anything because I'll still be worried that it'll suddenly end. Of course, now that I've said that, my sister will probably write a comment telling me to do stuff again. Hopefully, that'll motivate me. On to the next thing. I mentioned that I wanted to update more often... Well, you can all see how well that went. Before I try to move on to something else, I'll update you guys (I still can't believe that there are multiple) on the last thing I can think of that I've been talking about: fanfics. As far as writing goes, my thought process has been like this: "I haven't written anything in a while. I really need to get started on- OOO, shiny." Okay, I think the shiny object distracts me a little faster than that but you get the picture.
Okay, on to other stuff. There's not really that much going on (hence, the free time). I guess I could always talk about the strange career possibility that I came up with a while ago. I considered trying to become a professional muse. Basically, I would find a writer, come up with ideas for his books, and live off the royalties. I come up with strange, unique ideas often enough to do it. However, there are two problems. Anyone popular and talented enough for the royalties to be able to support me probably would be able to come up with their own ideas. Plus, it would be basically impossible to contact them. I could try to become a writer myself (which is one idea that I'm currently playing with). However, I come up with interesting ideas far better than I put them to words. Of course, that's why I'm trying to write fanfiction. It's training.
And now for something completely different. I hate Netscape. A while ago, I switched from using Netscape to Mozilla (aka Firefox). I thought nothing of it. Then, a few weeks ago, some Netscape thing popped up. Again, I didn't really care. Now, the bloody thing is popping up everyday. As if that wasn't annoying enough, whenever it pops up, Mozilla crashes. Now, I have to scour my computer for some small portion of Netscape that the uninstall left behind. I officially hate Netscape.
I guess that's it for now. Hopefully, I'll start posting more often and start on the things I've been meaning to do. Oh, wait, the book I ordered is coming next week. Nevermind. I won't be doing anything. I'll be spending all my free time next week reading the book because zombies rock. Go zombies!

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:35:43 GMT

As I mentioned before, I have suddenly discovered that I have free time. I was planning on using it to start up a few things that I have been meaning to do for a while. However, I am still worried about how long it will last. I guess I'll just wait and see how things go for a while. After all, I don't want to start something and then end up not having time for it. I would probably try to finish it anyway and end up cramming it in. Thus, I would not do as well of a job as I would want to.
Time for something more interesting. As I'm pretty sure I posted before, I have become obsessed with Supernatural. As such, I just finished watching all the episodes that haved aired so far. It's pretty amazing how many episodes I can watch in a row. Now, I have an urge to have a Buffy marathon. Considering how many seasons there are, it's probably a bad idea but I'm probably going to do it anyway.
Not much else to talk about since I'm not going to even bother doing a fanfic update. Hopefully, I'll be more imaginative later.

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 08:26:43 GMT

Once again, I don't have much to say. Life has been pretty boring lately. My life seems to be calming down and opening up a bit. While I appreciate my new found free time, I'm worried about how long it will last. As such, I'm hesitant to commit to some of the things that I was planning on starting once things started opening up again. I want to check on a few things and wait a while first. However, I am hopeful. If it works out well, I'll have more time to do interesting things that may inspire me to post more often. All in all, the possibility of more free time sounds very pleasant.
Fanfic update time! I finally worked out one of the main reasons why I'm having problems with writing. I simply haven't been able to stay in character well enough for my taste. Thus, I can't make myself write them. I'm planning on having a few marathons to try to make myself a bit more comfortable with the characters.

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 17:33:13 GMT

Okay, people who are not related to me are reading my livejournal now so I should probably try to update more often... Right, there was a reason I hadn't updated. I can't think of anything to say... Well, this went well.
I guess I could make a fanfic update... except I'm still at the same stage as I was last time. I still know exactly how they're going to end but not what to do right now.
Well, this was pointless.
Seriously though, I'm planning on starting to update on a semi-regular schedule. I'll try to post something later tonight, probably after I should already be asleep (as usual). Of course, I might not have anything to write by then so, don't get your hopes up. After all, this type of thing isn't funny a second time (not everyone will even think it's funny the first time).

New Record

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 03:13:47 GMT

I have actually posted three days in a row. That's a new record. Yay for me.
Not much is new. Though, I do plan on trying to do more work my fanfics. Plus, I still have no idea where I am going to post some of them. At least, I already know who is going to beta all of them. Hmm... Speaking of fanfic, only one of my fics has a interspecies relationship planned... I should come up with something to pair off with Xander in my Buffy fic. After all, he is a demon magnet. Oh, I was having trouble coming up with a main villain for it but I just remembered one that I came up with before. Now, if only I could come up with that kind of insight on the fics I already started. Well, I guess it's time to try.

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 02:41:41 GMT

I guess I'll pick up where I left off yesterday. I mentioned pairings. I guess I should also mention that I will not have any explicit sex in my fics anytime in the foreseeable future. There is one very good reason for this. WONDER VIRGIN POWERS ACTIVATE! Unlike most virgins whose fanfics I have read, I actually know something about sex. However, I also know that I do not know enough about it to write it. Some of them know nothing about the female body. I'm talking about common knowledge stuff (like what the clitoris is), not the kind of thing that even some women don't know (like the fact that a shot to the crotch hurts them as much as it hurts men). Some of the stuff that I have stumbled across doesn't make any logical sense.
On a completely different front, I did a bit of 'verse building. As none of the two of you know, I want to write novels someday. Today, I finally wrote down notes on some of the things that have been floating around in my head. It was good to finally commit some of my ideas to paper. All of the notes I wrote down are related to the Land of Shadows (I'll probably refer to it like that far more than by its actual name). As none of you probably guessed, it is populated by a race that is completely devoted to the greater good. However, that means doing what's right, not necessarily what's good. Their point of view is a bit hard to explain.
I guess I should make a fanfic update. I'm still having trouble. My work on my original world isn't going to help. I have only started trying to write fanfic recently but I have already had to abandon quite a few fanfic ideas because I wanted to incorporate one of my characters as an OC in the fic and couldn't get the thought out of my head. Many of these characters would either unbalance the fic or draw too much attention away from the characters from the fandom. Actually, it would be rather similar to the effects a Mary Sue have on a fic. Needless to say, this is a bad idea. However, my sister finally found a solution rather recently. I am going to put one of the characters in a rather minor role in one of the fics I am planning. He will only appear for a very short while and it won't even mention his name. I will effectively be the only one who will know who he is. Thus, I will fulfill my urge without destroying a fic. I needed a portal anyway. Why not have a psychotic demigod provide it?

Oh, Almost Forgot

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 23:40:34 GMT

I almost forgot to mention my new avatar. I mostly put it up because the idea of a cloaked figure with a cell phone amuses me. I really should get an avatar that isn't from The Wotch. Though, I refuse to use avatars that I haven't made myself (thus, the badly done cropping) and I am lazy.
I just realized that I could have just edited the post I made a few minutes ago in order to add this in. Oh well.
While I'm doing this, I might as well say something else. My new obsession is Supernatural. As you might have pieced together by reading my sister's livejournal, this is the fandom of my new fic idea. After all, who doesn't want some Sam on demon action?... Okay, realistically, most people probably wouldn't like it that much. After all, it would be a het fic in a predominantly slash fandom.
Speaking of... NO, I should save something for tomorrow so I will have something to write.

New Post! YAY!

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 23:06:01 GMT

As anyone who actually reads this has probably noticed, I haven't updated in a while. This has been for two reasons. A) I was very busy and B) I was absent minded. Though, it was mostly B.
Oh, I have exciting news (for me at least). I HAVE TWO FRIENDS. Of course, one is my sister and I don't know anything about the other one. Her livejournal tells me almost nothing about her. Though, she doesn't seem like the creepy stalker type. This is unfortunate due to the fact that I have always wanted a creepy stalker. One theory is that I used to know her by another name. Though, she wouldn't recognize my new alias and she doesn't sound like anyone I can think of. Another theory is that she found out about me through my sister. This seems like the most likely since she has friended (would that be the right way to say it?) both of us. The third theory is that she randomly made me her friend for no apparent reason. If it was anyone except me, I wouldn't think this was likely. Of course, she'll probably leave a comment to tell me after that rant. Though, saying that might make her not want to tell me or she could want to hear me rant about it again... I spent far too long thinking about this. Now, I have to ponder why I haven't made her my friend in return but I doubt anyone wants to hear that (trying to understand an explanation of my thought processes could drive you insane).
Okay, and now for something completely different. I guess I should comment on my fanfics since I think I have done that for every post so far. Things are getting even worse. I recently developed an idea for a new fanfic and it is making my thought process even more jumbled. Though, it brings up an interesting question. Why do I keep trying to pair people off with demons? I guess it probably has something to do with my obsession with them. Actually, I can only think of one pairing that I came up with in which both people are from the same species. I'm just glad that one of my fics is going to be a gen fic (there are some interspecies lines that even I won't cross).
Umm... I guess that's enough ranting for now... I really need to find some better way to end these things.

Super Happy Name Explanation Fun Time! YAY!!!

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 21:38:02 GMT

I was trying to think up something to rant about when I realized that I never explained why I chose the name Alexi Grey. I have always liked the name. Unfortunately, I liked it too much. Whenever I would come up with a fanfic idea or even a idea for an original story, I would always think up a character named Alexi Grey. I decided that using that name would be the easiest way to stop wanting to use it in fics. Due to my hatred of all things Mary Sue, I have not even considered making a character named Alexi Grey in any of my fic ideas since then. I am triumphant!
Thinking about it, I realized how ironic it would be if I wrote a Mary Sue considering how much I hate them. However, this will never happen for a few reasons. Mary Sue characters tend to be so perfect that they completely dominate fics. However, unlike Mary Sues, the main characters I come up with are not perfect. Usually, they are either horribly tortured and depressed (far beyond the tragic past that many Mary Sues possess) or insane. Plus, they do not tend to be universally liked. After all, people do not tend to get along with psychos and people who spend almost all of their free time brooding. There was only one character that I came up with that was neither overly depressed or insane (okay, he was a little crazy). After I finished developing him, only one word could truly describe him: asshole. Also, my characters are not infallible. Okay, that's enough ranting about that for now.
I had a mini-bipolar episode today. I felt depressed for no apparent reason for about three seconds and then I had a three second manic period. It was really weird.
I was looking back at my earlier posts. I noticed something (besides the fact that there aren't very many of them). The grammar in one of them was really odd.

I Knew This Would Happen

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 05:09:32 GMT

It's been a few days since my last entry. I warned you (by you, I mean my sister because she's probably the only one that read this). Due to the fact that my life is a seething mass of malignant chaos, I tend to be a bit disorganized... I wonder if anyone will add me as a friend for the sole reason that they recognize the "seething mass of malignant chaos" thing from an old alias I used to use (by old, I mean about 2 months ago). Anyway, I guess I should warn anyone that might stumble upon this that my posts will probably be rather sporadic.
Okay, moving on. My sister has been pestering me. Apparently, I'm supposed to have multiple avatars. I really can't think of any reason for this. Plus, finding a good picture to create an avatar from is a lot harder than I thought it would be. However, I am following her "advice" (and by advide, I mean insistence) to join a few communities.
On a different not, I have been suffering from writers block so I'm not getting very far on my fanfic. I have so many fic ideas running around in my head that I started a second one from a different fandom. Now, I have one barely started fanfic and one slightly older and slightly longer fanfic. I have writer's block for both of them... I think my muse hates me. Plus, my obsessing reading of webcomics cuts down on the time I could spend writing.

EDIT: I gave in and got a second avatar.

WHOO! AVATAR!

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 06:17:43 GMT

Okay, I have an avatar now. It's the Uricarn demon from one of my favorite webcomics, The Wotch. Go check it out at www.thewotch.com. Though, I would prefer that my two favorite characters get a bigger part. At least, it looks like one of them will in the future.
In completely unrelated business, my attempts at writing fanfiction aren't going very well. No, you haven't missed anything. This is my second post so I haven't mentioned anything before. One problem is that story ideas for fanfics in at least 4 different fandoms are competeing with eachother in my mind. My other problem is writer's sphere. This is a term made up by Dan Shive, the creator of one of my other favorite webcomics, El Goonish Shive (www.elgoonishshive.com). It is basically the opposite of writers block. I have a ridiculous amount of ideas floating around in my head and no idea how to use them together.
Now that I've mentioned those comics, I'm wondering which one I like more... again. I'll probably be thinking about it all night and for quite a bit of tomorrow morning. If they're not tied for first, they're pretty close to it. At least, I know that there aren't any comics that I like more than them... I think. Of course, once I post this, I will immediate think up another comic that I like good enough to be in the running. Oh well, good bye for now... I need to come up with a good goodbye saying. Though, I doubt anyone will read my posts enough for it to matter. Plus, coming up with interesting things to write about it far more important... and not writing my posts at midnight.

EDIT: I have put up a new Avatar since then. I will probably switch back and forth between them.

Livejournal! YAY!

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 03:56:50 GMT

I finally got a livejournal account... and I can't think of anything to say. This is a bad sign. Not quite as bad as having a crow live on your head but still pretty bad (bonus points for anyone who recognizes that reference). On the other hand, this might mean I won't get horrible addicted. Of course, now that I've said that, I'm definitely going to get addicted. Umm... Yeah, I can't think of anything. Hopefully, my rantings will be more interesting and sanity defying tomorrow.